Settling In

Hemi in his new home with plenty of trail area to ride, a nice sand riding ring, a nice barn.

Brandy and Hemi the day they were moved. Getting to know their surroundings.....and my little munchkin, Brandy....

My apartment...the kitchen area, and the view from my doorway. The bathroom is on the right, then the kitchen, then the bed/living area.

I go out my window to sit on the porch. I'll be spending plenty of time with a tea and book here in the private corner.

my entrance

my apartment is on the lower left side. Hiding behind the bushes is my private corner.

Well, my move is over. I love love love my apartment. I love this town. I'm getting settled into the community. I have a gym to go to, I have a new pharmacy, I have new nursing team to take care of my picc line. I have a new lab to get bloodwork done. Still need a family doctor and dentist, but I'll look into that next week. I love that I can do my errands and be finished them in 15 minutes. I'm within walking distance to almost everything I need. Its great. My horses have settled in as well and seem to be enjoying the new farm. And I love the new farm. Met some people there that I'm going to enjoy spending time with. I'm very happy with my decision to move, and especially to this small town of St. Thomas.

I had my specialist appointment last week in TO. The mass in my lung is an 1/8th of its original size, which is amazing. The IV antiobiotic is actually working. So with the good news comes not so great news. I'll be on the IV antiobiotic for the next year at least. I see the specialist again in 5 months and maybe by then we can reduce the dose to 3 times a week rather than 5. But until there is absolutely no trace of the MAC, I'll be on the IV. So, in light of that, I've decided to name it "little P". Its going to be part of my life for a long time yet, I might as well make it feel at home!!

PS....to the anonymous poster...I'd love to know who you are......

Horsing Around

Well, today was the day I moved my horses. The move went very well. Both the boys got onto the trailer no problem and didnt have any issues with being in a trailer for 2 hours. They settled into the field quite quickly at the new farm and when I left, Brandy was busy protecting Hemi from one of the other horses. I think they will be just fine there. Its a beautiful place with a sand riding ring, lots of trails down the road, well kept barn, great shelters from the elements and I met very nice people today as well. So, phase 1 of the move is complete. Wednesday I plan on moving one truck load and Saturday I'll finish off the move and be a resident of St. Thomas. Also this week, I go to see the specialist in TO and find out about the mass in my lung again. See if there is any improvement and if I can get off this IV I've been on since March. I'll keep you all posted....

Another Move

I have found some time and internet connection to update my blog. It's been a busy month yet again, but I see an end in sight. I am moving to St. Thomas the end of the month. I am unable to afford to live in Kitchener and keep both my horses, but in St. Thomas, I have found a home for my horses and myself that I can afford to do on my budget....so....off I go. I am actually very excited to be moving back to a small town. Woodstock, where I was born and lived unil i was 20, had a population of 30,000. St. Thomas is the same and close to London so I have all the big town stuff close by if I want. My horses will be about 15 minutes from my apartment. I'm moving into a bachelor apartment within a house that has 4 apartments in it. Its in a decent area and I can walk to the downtown core. Its going to be pretty cool. I'll be getting internet access again once I move so will be able to keep more up to date on this blog. I am very excited for this new chapter in my life and I'm really excited to have my own space and not have to share my bathroom and kitchen with others..... small things making me happy these days!!!! hahaha!!! I'm also excited about meeting new people and finding my way around a new town, a new church, gym, library and whatever else will happen......

Moving On

Its been a busy month of moving stuff and organizing my new room. I love being on my own and love having my own space. I found a cute room in a house in the country to move into for Sept 1st and am settled quite nicely there. Unfortunatley, a couple people in the house smoke and I was told they don't smoke inside, but they have been and I just can't handle that. Also, I can't afford to stay in the Kitchener area with both my horses, so the looking for new accomodation has continued. I have found a barn for my 2 horses that I can afford which is right outside of St. Thomas. Now I'm just looking for a place to rest my head too in that area. Looking at St. Thomas/Alymer area for a bachelor/studio apartment or someone to rent me their basement. I'm very excited to start fresh in a new town. I'm hoping to be moving by November 1st. I have no internet access where I am right now so my blogging is sporadic, so I apologize. (although lately its been sporadic because I'm so busy). I'm hoping to eliminate alot of my business by moving away as well. I need to take care of Kym. My board work for the Refuge will be over in April, if I make it that long and I'll have to consider my part on the Kitchener chapter of the CCFF. I assume I'll be letting that go as well. Time to take care of Kym and spend more time at home and hanging with my horses. I've lost what I want to be the last couple years being so busy running away from home. I've made myself so crazy busy with meetings and visiting that I haven't time to myself anymore. That is going to change with this move as well. Continue to remember me in your prayers....and Jay as well. He's having a hard time with all this. My family and friends have been amazing through all this and I thank you all.

Big Changes

Wow...so much has happened since I was on here last. First start with health....my breathing test showed that my lung function has increased very very little. I thought I was doing better, but increase is better than a decrease.

Now for what's been occupying my time the last several months aside from what I've been writing. I have made the tough decision to leave Jay and find a place on my own. The last few years have just taken their toll on me and I'm too tired to fake being happy anymore. My family and friends, you know which ones you are, have listened to me moaning and groaning for over 2 years now. So, I've decided to go out on my own and see if that changes the way I'm feeling. Alot of the reason I haven't done this earlier is because I thought I'd have to give up my horses and bike, but I've found a way that I can keep them all. I am renting a room in the country for very cheap that includes everything, even cable and internet, and its just a few minutes from where my horses stay. I have found a young girl who wants to part board Brandy, my pony. Which means, she'll pay for part of his board and be able to ride him whenever she wants. But it means I get to keep him.

So September 1st starts a new chapter in my life, and Jay's as well, as we both struggle through the next little while and figure things out. Please remember us in your thoughts and prayers.

Summer Has Finally Arrived

Well it seems we finally have summer. The past few weeks have kept me busy once again. I helped my girlfriend who had major surgery for a few days. I've been to Wonderland with my "other" family. I've been to a wedding in Stony Creek...a very posh wedding, Imight add.... I spent the last weekend in Turkey Point with a girlfriend for our annual girly weekend. A good time as usual, but very different then other years. Cari is recouping from a hysterectomy 2 weeks ago and can't lift or move, which means no dancing or being silly. Turned out to be a good year to not be able to dance as the Turkey Point Hotel lost their liquor license for the month of August and was closed down. So no dancing. We did manage to stay 15 minutes at the karaoke bar...could only handle a few minutes of that. So we had a very relaxing weekend, in bed by 10ish every night, layed on the beach every day (I even managed to go in the lake being very careful not to get my picc line wet) , had a nap every afternoon, enjoyed good food, and did manage to meet some fun people along the way. We seem to make new friends every year we go.... I've enjoyed the last couple days spending time with my horses yet again and today was able to enjoy being out on my bike. I've been contemplating selling it to try to get ahead with some bills, but I just can't do it.....its such a part of my life.... The rest of my week will find me in Whitby and Richmond Hill. I have a board meeting with The Refuge on Friday then I'm helping at the salon Friday and Saturday. They are very understaffed and Danielle is there on her own, so I"m helping out till she hires another stylist. I've enjoyed being part of the salon again. Makes me feel kinda normal...... My health has been pretty good. I'm still on all my drugs, but I'm feeling like I'm breathing a bit better. I have some breathing tests on Monday and look forward to the numbers being better....keeping my fingers crossed that this stuff is finally starting to work....

This Week

Last week I spent Mon-Thursday up north of Goderich at Riverside Park. A friend from highschool that I've seen once in the last 20 something years has a cabin there with her family and I spent some time there. It is a beautiful place. Very relaxing and quiet. It was fun to catch up with Becky since leaving high school. I enjoyed her 2 children. I had a trailer to sleep in by myself which was very cool... I felt like I was roughing it but still with all the comforts of home. No hydro or running water, but heat with wood stoves, cook on the bbq or propane stove, lights are all propane, outhouse for bathroom. Very quaint and fun to be there. Looking forward to getting there again before summer is over. I came home Thursday for my dressing change and to see my horses. I spent time with the horses again on Friday, then Friday night was out and about on my bike visiting friends. Today I went to Richmond Hill to spend time at the salon and tomorrow is the Hanenburg Family Reunion in Sebringville. I'm still keeping busy.